It has been radio silence here lately but, frankly, I don’t really know what to write. I passed my first skating test so I am moving on to Derby 101! I get to start actually learning more rules and hitting/etc so I am very excited. I absolutely love derby, skating, and pushing myself harder and harder. Derby typically takes up my cardio for the week as I practice for 4 hours a week, a time that I am hoping to extend more as soon as I can.
On my off days I hit the gym and do 15 mins of cardio warmup, a few weight circuits, and then a cardio cooldown.
As of right now I feel amazing. I look stronger, I feel stronger, I am pushing myself harder. Part of me wants to continue writing here more often but I don’t know what to say. I am generally pretty happy with my food/exercise routine. I have reached a great place mentally where I can eat more and not feel miserable about it.
IN AMAZING NEWS!!! Last night I got very stressed out and went to binge but stopped myself after a bit of cottage cheese and an apple! I am very proud of myself for managing to stop my binge, I normally have a very hard time with calming down and forgiving myself and I feel like being able to stop myself is truly a sign of my progress.
At the beginning of the year I was striving to work out 6 days a week, eat clean, love myself, find balance in my eating disorder and to be authentic. Looking back on it now I see how far I have come and how much I can appreciate my change and hard work this year. I now push my body to be stronger and faster as opposed to thinner, less. I have this amazing appreciation of myself and treat myself with love and respect, I let myself show for people to see and I eat whatever I want whenever I want it. Most of the time it’s healthy, sometimes it is McDonalds. I am so glad to be in this new place of health and self love!
I guess part of what I’m saying is that my newfound healthiness is leading to less of an obsession with fitness. I work out regularly, but I don’t feel the need to record everything anymore. I’m sure I’ll still bop around every now and then still and I’m happy to give advice or talk to anyone who needs it.
Love ya xxx